I decided that since I feel confident in my artistic eye and since I feel confident that I am a pretty good photographer, myself, according to my adoptive family (considering it's the only good thing they've ever said about me other than that my brain works, which I take to be a positive), and I've always thought I did well with a camera... I want a Canon EOS Digital Rebel T1i, even though the suggested retail is $899.99 and I don't have that, maybe someone can gift it to me or maybe I can get on Social Security and then be able to afford it in two months' checks. I'm sure I'd be able to make a decent amount of money, however, with my photography, especially having an international medium like this to try to use to that end, so not all customers would be in the *financially* bankrupt United States, so at least someone would be able to afford to buy pictures, and that includes some of you beloved, precious-few watchers I have. So... yeah. I have a lot of good ideas, and once I got a camera, you'd all be like flabbergasted at how quickly I'd go from 0 deviations to over a thousand, cause I'd take huge sets of the best possible pictures I could manage to take to toss up here, and I'd make sure not to miss so much as one state in the country! (Of course, being in New Jersey, some of you states would waiting a while for me to reach you.) ... but yeah. I'm feeling kind of depressed right now, since things so rarely work out for me (thus the title of this melancholic-but-slightly-hopeful entry), but if I could get a good camera, I'm sure I could manage to turn things around in my life, financially, and the rest would follow. As soon as I could move out and support myself and be away from the adoptive family that patronizes and belittles me, I'm sure my depression would be far less debilitating.

Even if you don't feel like contributing to my goal of a $900 camera, thanks for reading. And thanks for caring enough to take the time to do said reading, I know most of you have probably got much better things to do than listen to me whine and daydream, after all.